Thursday, May 9, 2013

Thursday, 5/9/13

Dear Journal,

It's over. Last class finished.

It seems like my last journal entry should contain some profound reflective thoughts, summarizing ways I have grown and things I have learned. But instead, I really have nothing to say but this:

I've learned.
I've grown.
I'll never be the same again.

Humorously, I was late to class to day. I have not been late to a single class during my entire placement.  (A nearly unbelievable thing as those who know me well can testify!) I have been on time. Not always prepped and prepared like I wanted to be. But I've been in the room when I was supposed to be.

Today I was working on writing an essay and really got into it. I finished and punched the save button with a satisfied air of accomplishment. I was about to pull up my email and send it off to Mrs. Walden when I glanced at the clock.


I was to have been in class at 4:35.


Anyways, I had my students fill out a "Grade Your Student Teacher" form for my portfolio and the results were insightful. The Seniors think I should give less homework, be more prepared for class, and have more constructive activities. The Freshmen think I'm fun, that I care about them, I make things clear, they can tell I like kids and that I always have constructive activities.

Confirmation once again that I fit better in the lower grades than the upper.

My die-hard Quadrant 2 said that I don't act like a teacher is supposed to, but commented three times that the lessons were very practical and clear.

Firecracker thinks I should work on being more awesome like him...

In some ways I wish I could leave here feeling like my time here has made some sort of a difference. Maybe I compare teaching too much with canvassing where the life-changing impact on students is so concentrated that it's easy to see growth and change. Perhaps I shouldn't wish for results I can see, but thank God for the results that are promised.

All in all, at the end of the day I am grateful.

Grateful for what I know, for what I now know that I don't know, and for knowing better where to go when I want to know.

Its been real.


  1. Thanks so much for sharing your journal with the world, Beth! It's been so insightful, and it's comforting to know that some of the things I experience as a teacher are actually normal phenomena! :P I'll definitely miss this....

    1. Lol, glad you guys didn't mind putting up with it! Your encouraging comments made it fun to do my homework. :)

      Btw...I don't know what kind of phone availability you have, but if there's a way it could work out, I'd like to talk to you sometime in the next couple weeks...

  2. Beth, I also thank you for sharing this journal with us all. I have found it very interesting and such a blessing. :)

    God be with you during the next stage of your life!